Heading towards end of 2012

You only have yourself to answer to

Cont’ – 2009

… I guess my career helps in pushing me to be more determined by then. Being an actor with just the knowledge out of an acting school without the “Idol Class” Qualification which is much look upon… its pretty competitive. So I push harder but smarter now. Before I start I set a goal and told myself no matter what others say I’ll stick to the plan unless I decide to make the change on my own. I know a lot of people around me will have a lot of say in many things so best I set my mind firm and not stray or submit to temptations.

Then I went into modeling. Entering contest of like:

• Hottest Hunks in Malaysia
• GS Vogue Super Hunks

and some lingerie shows and magazine shoots, bridal shoots because back then when I started, not a lot of models are muscular. Most of them are tall and thin. lol. The irony. I am short and sexy 😛 kidding. But yeah, I was creating awareness and attention wherever I went. Be it on the film & Drama sets or just modeling events. And up till the point of events non related to modeling or acting. The sudden extra attention felt good. But i always tell myself that I will not stray from my path. Some offered me advice to abuse steroids and even told me that oral steroids are not consider steroids. Some models even told me to inject L-Carnitine directly into the abdominal areas but I never fell for those kinda temptations. It was due to my goal as its not just to look sexy, but i focus more on FITNESS & HEALTHY LIFESTYLE. To me, having to directly inject any substance into my body to enhance anything is bad. READ UP on it and you would know that our body is not meant to receive so much dose is such a gushed manner. Asked me what do I think of them who took it? “Its their own choice and we have different goals” What they are willing to sacrifice now for whatever reasons it is isn’t what I am willing to sacrifice long term. i look ahead to 10 years down the line, 20 years, if so blessed 30 years and 40 years. The short 5 minute fame is not what i think in my own opinion as worthy my sacrifice.

I didn’t join a lot of modeling contest because i was more focus on acting. Most would tell me its almost near impossible to be both acting and maintaining. Well, I’ve to juggle Studies, Acting, Modeling and Events while maintaining my physiques. All it takes is a little time management. I mean, most people I know usually tell me that they don’t have time to go to the gym. And when I asked them what are they doing for the night, its always

• I’m clubbing tonight
• I’m Pubbing tonight
• I’m going starbucks, coffeebean, this dinner that tea time… endless

but never had time to gym. So I guess at the end of the day, its what you see as important or prioritized that matters if you have the time to stay healthy. On those ground traveling days, my luggage usually has a minimum weight of  20kg. My pair of dumbbells. And when I’ve to fly, i’ve my trusted Resistant band. Sometimes when I can’t bring much.. I’ll grab whatever I can get. Like fire extinguisher (I’ve a video of that) stairs, tables, chairs.. you name it I’ll think of it. I’ll mostly wake up earlier than everyone else to pump in the gym before going to work in events or shoots or sleep later than anyone else. When I first started I did a lot of cardio up till I read that the real fat burning exercise is weight training and how intensely you do it. Anyways, back then I would jog at 2 am – 3 am in the morning after work around my condo freaking the securities out sometimes. lol. Usually an hours worth before I head back to my unit and shower before I rest to wake up at 6 am to go to shoots. It’s all about dedication and how much you are willing to sacrifice. Sometimes I would drag myself out of the bed like a zombie early in the morning just to exercise. Even with eyes wide shut.

It’s always about how much it meant to you and how much are you willing to sacrifice to obtain it.

Cont’

From Doomsday to 1st Christmas…

Hence after reading all those notes and research… i started on a new path

Cont’…

2008 – After all those here and there and finally came to another milestone in Kuala Lumpur. I threw the anchor and started with my new philosophy which I’ve read up on full of hope and faith. I believe this was what I was missing out on. I cleared out all the food I’ve had and went to Tesco to grab veggies and fruits. Yes, Just veggies and fruits. Lettuce, cabbage, carrots, tomatoes, Lemon, apples, raisins and even a bottle of olive oil. I was eating raw to detox my system. What started out as just a week diet gone to 2, 3, 4. Which lead on to a month and 2 and I was feeling fresh and fabulous. With all the cleansing food in me I was really feeling whole again. No more sudden fatigue and not even feeling tired or weak. Didn’t know by eating just raw fruits and veggies one can obtain more energy and strength. Even completely threw out processed sugar and salt. Compared to what we believe in that only when you consume rice and meat that you gain energy to work or do anything. So loving the feeling and feeling all cleansed I started on another routine. Complex carbs in such of Oatmeals, whole grains, seeds & nuts. Skimmed Milk, Yoghurt, cheese & roots. hahaha.. roots as in ginseng, and those chinese tree barks and stuff. Managed to find myself Natural Bran, Natural husk and ingredients like such and I was practically living the impracticality in a modern society. I stopped eating out since I started because I know of the processed chemicals and all. Once I even boycott socializing with friends because they were trying to temp me into giving into worldly temptations of delicious mouth watering food. I guess after seeing the better of the natural diet and cleaner food that I fell in love with it. Then came the taboo since I started working out. Not to rely on supplements. Realizing I must not be so judgmental I started scrapping up materials to read up on and study. 1st on the list was Protein.

2009 – Finally think since I’ve changed my physique with just diet alone I decide to hit the gym again. I guess the injury was still fresh in my memory but I love a challenge and I want to overcome that fear to break the barrier of failure. So I told myself not to push too fast too furious so I can slowly build the momentum and sustain it long term this time round. But I guess I underestimated the power of bicycle against resistance. lol. I cycled from home to the gym. Which was a great distance or probably I was too inactive far too long. By the time I reached the gym, I’ve already rest stop 4 times and was literally out of breath when i reach the gym. I climbed the stairs up to the gym and saw the person in charge. I told him I come to see the gym once more before I commit and went down to the coffee shop around the corner and ate some rice before I slowly cycled back to the gym. True enough, the next day I took a bus to the gym. 2 because it had to stop at the station in between to shift bus. Told you it was a distance. lol. So I went it. hit all the lightest weights which I will never IN MY LIFE believe that it will be on my hands. So after 25 minutes I took a bus home. Did 3 times a week 25 minutes each session for the 1st 3 weeks before I increase week by week. 1st the amount of time spent and then the amount of days and finally I got myself up to … well, what the world say an OBSESSIVE gym time. 5 hours each session in circuit manner. They called me the commando back in those days cause I weren’t training like a bodybuilder but a commando. I was complimented with good stamina.

Of course not all is smooth sail. There are times when some would walk up to me to discourage me in many form. Once the most ridiculous one was one obese guy who was a member for 2 years or more walks up to me and told me I was doing it all wrong and should follow him instead when I was making drastic progress in matter of months. So I politely told him “I’m happy doing it wrong and happy that he’s doing it correctly” When you start on your path there are sure some who would be envious, jealous or just plain being nasty and will try to demotivate you, put you down and even tries to destroy you. My advice, “STAY STRONG AND FOCUS ON YOUR GOAL!” cause only you know where you want to see yourself in. Don’t give up and don’t let others have the pleasure of demolishing you.cont’…

(P.s. for those who knows, i was staying at Ara Damansara then and the gym is at SS2)